Note from Mom

The picture above is the note that my Mom left for me a few days ago.  It reads: "Please don't feel that you need to find someone.  A person will come around in the future.  You are the person someone is looking for..."

Normally I hate my mom's notes.  Usually they are written on random sheets of scrap paper and placed in even more random places such as the bathroom or on top of a pile of unfolded clothes.  Her notes, when I can even understand them, usually ask me to buy her lottery numbers.  I discard these notes promptly.

But this note was different.  It almost made me cry actually.  The description reminds me of a patient who one day has a lucid moment.  With one powerful note my mother became the mom I always so desperately wanted and so desperately needed.  It's a moment that I haven't had in a long time and probably won't have  for awhile.  And it couldn't come at a more perfect time.

For the past few days, weeks, months, hell this past year, I have felt like I'm in the lower part of the life curve.  I wrote about it not too long ago.  Everyone is married (even married a second time) and on their first, second, or third child.  Me, I live at my aunt and uncle's house with my mom.  No house, no marriage, no prospects in sight.  If life were the public school system I would either have been in special ed or I would have been held back a couple of times.  My relationship growth is majorly stunted.

Needless to say, I have been a little down about my singledom.  But mom sent me the reminded me what I tell my friends all the time.  We should not compare ourselves to others.  And that things happen on God's time, not my own.  I guess many sometimes I just need to hear it from someone else.