I know that you all have been eagerly awaiting my next blog entry. I am sure that you have noticed that my entries have become further and further apart. Believe me it is not because I did not have anything to say, it's probably more because I had too much to say. I had too much going on, too many thoughts in my head, so much contemplation on my heart, that I was overwhelmed. I was dealing with life.
We always think that we are invincible. It starts off when we are children. We jump, run, bike all to the utmost levels of danger because we believe that we are superhuman. We convince ourselves that we will never die and that we will never experience pain. But as our flesh gets older and our minds grow wiser we know that eventually we will all experience our final day.
My aunt passed away a couple of days ago. This is my aunt that I have lived with for the past few years. The aunt that acted like a superhero taking care of sick family members, including her sister who is my mother. My aunt and I could butt heads and then laugh and joke the next minute. She would call to check up on folks regularly. She always made sure that the house was fully stocked with ginger even though she and I were the only people who enjoyed it. The aunt that cared so much for others that she often times neglected herself.
My aunt was surrounded by love in her final hours. You would think that we were on Jay-Z and Beyonce status with the way that we took over the floor! So many family members and friends were touched by a woman who believed that angels were looking down and guarding over her. To many, she herself was an angel.
We always think that we will have one more day, one more day to say I love you, one more day to say I am sorry, one more day, to promise to stay strong for everyone. We live such a fragile life, never knowing when our last day will be. After my father died I made a vow to never put off saying how I feel. I always try to let the people who I care about know how special they were/are to me. And although I could have told my aunt more how much I loved her and appreciated her I would like to think that she knew. I would like to believe that she passed knowing that I will take care of her sister and that she does not have to worry. My mustard seed of faith allows me to know that my aunt is living beyond her earthly flesh among the stars.
So listen. Don't take this life for granted. Don't hesitate to tell your loved ones that they are loved. As clique as it may sound you just never know when you will have that opportunity again.