Thursday, June 27, 2013
Note from Mom
The picture above is the note that my Mom left for me a few days ago. It reads: "Please don't feel that you need to find someone. A person will come around in the future. You are the person someone is looking for..."
Normally I hate my mom's notes. Usually they are written on random sheets of scrap paper and placed in even more random places such as the bathroom or on top of a pile of unfolded clothes. Her notes, when I can even understand them, usually ask me to buy her lottery numbers. I discard these notes promptly.
But this note was different. It almost made me cry actually. The description reminds me of a patient who one day has a lucid moment. With one powerful note my mother became the mom I always so desperately wanted and so desperately needed. It's a moment that I haven't had in a long time and probably won't have for awhile. And it couldn't come at a more perfect time.
For the past few days, weeks, months, hell this past year, I have felt like I'm in the lower part of the life curve. I wrote about it not too long ago. Everyone is married (even married a second time) and on their first, second, or third child. Me, I live at my aunt and uncle's house with my mom. No house, no marriage, no prospects in sight. If life were the public school system I would either have been in special ed or I would have been held back a couple of times. My relationship growth is majorly stunted.
Needless to say, I have been a little down about my singledom. But mom sent me the reminded me what I tell my friends all the time. We should not compare ourselves to others. And that things happen on God's time, not my own. I guess many sometimes I just need to hear it from someone else.